I'm looking for someone special. But a lot of people out there probably know, and I've probably mentioned this before, that there aren't many gainers/admirers here in Iowa. I'm looking for someone to talk to sincerely. To tell you the truth, there was someone who's picture I was crazy about from Biggercity and we talked back and forth for a while, but he doesn't get it. I'm the one who always has to send the first message to start off. I went so far as threatening to lose all the weight to get a reaction out of him and he said nothing. Chasers should be more worried when they hear that a big guy decides to lose his pounds. That says to me 'he' just doesn't care. He said before in a response that he's sorry for not sending messages because he's a naturally shy person. I don't mind that. I just feel a little bad if I made him feel that way. I guess I was so excited because he was an attractive Iowa chaser close to my age 'a little older' and liked a lot of the same things. Perhaps I got carried away. I might find someone some day. Sorry, but this is more of a vent blog.
No updates on the weight, although I am looking pretty big. Doing nothing all day but eating and massaging my stomach after each meal. Nothing out of the ordinary. Money is of course really tight right now since I haven't found a job yet so I won't go on another "Eat Week" like I did to get up to the 320lb mark. Wish me luck and donate if you can, knowing that every added dollar could make me bust my belt.
